Did I tell you that I was tired? I am pretty sure I did, either in this blog, in an email, or by voice. I’ve probably never felt that tired since I was born. Serious. This is more serious than the end of missions trips to Louisiana or the end of a summer in a camp. But oh well, last night, for the first time in my life, I felt I my mind had no longer any power over my body and my body took control of itself. It decided that it was shutting down, no matter what the head was saying. I literally could no do anything else than go to bed. But that was last night.

Hum, yeah, so since I am reflecting on my lack of rest and need of rest, God (as usual) takes the opportunity to sit me down and speak to me. This morning I was reading in Leviticus. And yes, it was about the sabbath. What stayed with me is that God asked the Israelites to not sow their fields every seventh year so the soil can rest (and obviously, the people as well!). But this involved more than just rest. God knew people would have some arguments against this rule: “But what about out food? How ar we going to feed ourselves if there is not a field in Israel that is worked ans that bears fruit?” He knew it going to come, so he says “I will send you such a blessing in the sixth year that the land will yeild enough for three years” (25:21). IN YOUR FACE! God is telling them, “Guys, simply do what I tell you, work hard, but rest and celebrate when I ask you and you won’t have to worry about anything else.”

I think it’s hard for me to rest in this season of my life where I have so much to do all the time. I always have an excuse for not taking a break, I literally can work all the time when I am not at school, walking to school or eating. But my body and my heart can’t take it and God knows it. It’s easy for me to say “But what about this assignment? I won’t have time to do it… Don’t you see my schedule? If I don’t study right now, I won’t have time tomorrow…” still God says, “Take it easy. Just do what I tell you, it’ll be just fine.” God does not promise me I’ll have the time and everything I need to succeed, but I think that He wants me to trust Him, that He will provide me with the time, before or after my sabbath, that he will give me the knowledge and wisdom I need to understand things quicker and so gain time. I don’t know, that’s just how I see things. Sabbath is not just a rest. It is God asking me to trust Him. I want to trust Him more, to live “dangerously” (what a cheesy sentence). Faith is dangerous from a human point of view… but really, it’s not dangerous at all!