I probably should be studying right now, but I am not because I don’t feel like it. Do I ever feel like studying anyways? I guess, I’ve been studying all day long and I’m a bit tired of it. Just so you know I rested on Sunday. I didn’t do anything school-related. I don’t feel as if it was healthy, but I guess if I keep on resting one day a week from school work, it’ll make a difference to what I will look like at the end of this semester, or year, or at the end of my bachelors -if I get there.
Could you tell me, how does someone is supposed to be encouraged? When things are just blah. Because that’s how I feel right now. I know it’s just a mood and I’ll get out of it, probably tomorrow. But I just wonder sometimes, “Gabe, why are you living at your grandparents?” it’s free, but that’s about it. I don’t really know how to decribe life here because there is no life. If you think I should get a life, come by here for a day and you’ll say my grandparents need to get a life. I mean, it’s different because they’re older, but still it is so desperate. They’re just waiting to die and I don’t know how I am fitting in this frame. I am not fitting. I guess is goes against my beliefs and thinking. I cannot stand people who don’t have a reason to live. Well I can stand them, but it annoys, frustrates me. And the fact that my grandparents have such a bad relationship I feel out-of-place. So I have been a bit discouraged there last couple of days. Sometimes I think “these are hard times” but they aren’t. Who am I to dare to think that this is sufering, oh man, I am pretty bad. I sometimes confuse suffering for Christ’s sake and just having a bad couple of days, and I “spiritualize” my, oh so tough life of suffering at my grandparents! But even as I know that it’ll go away and that this is no way hard when compared to true suffering… I’m still not encouraged (by the way, I do know that true suffering is not just physical). Anyways, please don’t feel sorry for me, I’m leaving the “country” for a week on Friday.
I have been sending out a survey about teacher motivations… thanks for all who answered, you did it really quickly! I am opening a little survey here on this blog, would you tell us (I say us because people will obviously read your comments) what you think about people who don’t seem to have anything to live for, they’re just living, without a hope that leads their thoughts and life decisions?
Bank for Native Missionaries: 10$ as of Monday October 16 2006.
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It bothers me big times when people just live because they happen to be alive. They don’t ask themselves why they are on earth and they just go with the flow, getting the best they from life, I think of unbelievers, but I think of Christians too. And it bothers me even more when Christians live without hope, like everybody else, trying to be comfortable on earth. It’s as if they suffer from miopia. They don’t see the purpose, the goal… I guess we’re all like that, and I include myself. I don’t know why though, it bothers me so much. I get frustrated at people who are unstable in their beliefs, I can’t understand how they can just go on like that. I don’t know how if I make sense here.
i think if i was one of them, id be the same. and i guess osmetimes as christians we do get enmbarqué wuith the flow of the world..applying romans 2 is always un combat constant pour certaines personnes. MAis bon. Je sais que moi, wait maybe i should write in english..i know that people who are just living to live are just lost. they arent ready yet to see god. I guess they are blinded. God will open their eyes in his time. I find it sad to see how many around us are just living to live..why not be an ant or spider instead? just be squished to death and get it over with..anyhow..i probably didnt exprime myself well. It did make sense in my brain though..sorry if i confused you.
Humans were created in God’s own image (Gen. 1:26) and God’s nature is love. He love his creature and wish a relationship with it. I believe the every human being has also a God shaped hole in his life that can only be filled with a relationship with Him. But because of sin, humans are trying to fill this round hole with square stuff. Or they just try to ignore this hole. Then frustration. I believe that everybody has a kind of purpose, vision or goal in life. Some have short vision (a day long or hour long, like old people or sick people) some have long vision (life or years vision, like younger people) Man are created in God’s image, we are more than animals and we don’t do things by instinct and we have expectations. But our very goal in life should be seeking God’s presence and relationship. Then by loving God, we will seek his commandment and He will teach us His ways and the God’s shaped hole will be filled. I should seek God’s relationship everyday and love Him. Because of the world around it’s not that easy, but with God’s grace I focus on Him.
1 john chapter 1 and on. My speech is not over but time is over.
I read back my comment and I think I off track about your question, but anyways…
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