So I decided I’d be a little nerd for Jesus and I’d propose to my grandma to read her a chapter in the Bible. She was thrilled. When I closed my Bible and looked up at her, I hit a wall. Don’t worry, she wasn’t angry. She told me that she didn’t like what I had read. She explained to me that she always read the parts that make her feel good. This is something that I do not understand and I hope, will never be able to understand. It’s true that there is a time for everything and I do search for encouraging passages sometimes (I’d need to do that right now), but do not tell me that you don’t want to hear Romans 1 because it doesn’t make you feel good, it’s not personal enough, because you can’t understand so much because it was written long long ago. This does not make sense to me and it frustrates me because I don’t know how to respond to someone who says, believe such things. I don’t know if my grandma is a child of God, but she talks as if she is one. I cannot judge her, but I find it really hard. I don’t know how to respond to her faith, at all. She is old and I cannot be harsh to her, I need to love her and help her understand better, but when I do so, it seems as if she believes we’re on the same team and … I don’t know where’s the balance. I need to be extremely cautious. That’s part of my frustrations for today. If you have any tips for dealing with this situation, please leave a comment or email me gabeleroux@yahoo.ca 

More frustrations: I feel as if the “pre-paper” I wrote for one of my classes, is really weak, poor, diluted, general, vague, without real argumentation (I was never good at that), when it should be clear, precise and with strong ideas. I am a bit discouraged. But I think I’ve done what I could when I consider the time and resources I had. Anyways. Something else that frustrates me is that one of my classes is seriously “du chinois” (“Chinese” to me), I couldn’t do my homework because I don’t get it. This usually never happens to me. And, on top of this, one of the courses I had to take this semester was full so I couldn’t take it (they did not tell me it was so important I take it before 2 weeks after I started). So I might be in trouble, like not being able to do my intership next semester, and if it happens, then the rest of my time at university will be… trouble. Anyways. What I am reminded of though, is that I started this journey with faith, leaving every single detail into God’s hands. I just need to think about my acceptance to Montréal, and my English test! It was really outside my control and I thought it was impossible for me to be accepted. It was. But God had a plan. He still does. I remember that I cannot start to trust my own ideas and abilities. It’s all God’s business. I do my best, He does the rest (sorry for the cliché). So I am encouraged when I think about it again and reaffirm that God is in control, He allows things to happen, or not happen and He’ll do as He pleases and this good, this is perfect.